Amends and YouTube

As I have been in various recovery groups, I am trying to blend the different programs together. At this point I don’t know who to make Amends to. The challenge that I have is how to explain the difference between an accountability partner, sponsor or Temporary Sponsor.

I think I will wait for about two weeks, and revisit this subject in two weeks. After all at the end of the reading it says something about how Jesus Christ will help us. I will pray about it, and maybe I will see about changing programs in the future.

As I wait for things to take shape in my mind, I will go ahead and talk about my problems with YouTube. It was playing clips fine a few days ago. I love using YouTube on my Apple iPad. But when I tried it again yesterday it was still coming up Playback Error Tap Again to Retry. I have contacted YouTube about the error, and I have looked at my Apple iPad.

My options for today today include the following.

1) My Apple iPad
2) The GHCGuest account on our network
3) YouTube

Normally I love to do either the 8 Recovery Principles by Pastor Rick Warren or play the 12 Steps on YouTube. I like to listen to music, and I have Run To The Battle by Steve Camp and The Road to Recovery by Rick Muchow and the Saddleback Church Band. I won’t be able to do that right now because of my YouTube.

I believe that I am still a Gamblers Anonymous member. I wish I had a Yellow Combo Book, but not at this time.

I could always contact someone at Westminster Presbyterian Church. They have two services this morning. One is early, and then another at eleven.

My plans today include Breakfast and Lunch in the Dining Room, Church Service in the clasroom at two, and then Dinner in the Dining Room tonight. Plans might change between now and Tuesday Afternoon when I get picked up by Alpha One in one of their wheelchair Vans for a ride down to my eye appointment at 2:30 on Timberlake Way.

I probably won’t revisit the Amends Meditation for another thirty days. Today was Day 15, which means tomorrow will be Day 16.


Fresh Starts in Arden Fair

I remember back when I was working at Sears over at Arden Fair Mall. That is a nice mall near Cal Expo where they have the State Fair every year. I have heard that they have the California sign that used to be at DCA in Anaheim.

I went to visit Disneyland, Downtown Disney and DCA several years ago while I was living at TLCS. But I am a little off topic, so please forgive me if I offended you.

I still live in Sacramento, and I got some stuff on YouTube from several different places. Right now I have some money in my account up front, so maybe someday in the future I could develop a Business like Fresh Baked Disney.

I should do some research on that in the coming months of November and December 2016. Right now it seems impossible, but maybe by 2017. I don’t have to do that, but it doesn’t hurt to explore.

I think that there are people on the Westmont Campus who might be able to help me put an end to my Gambling, as i try to focus on GA and the things that come when I am free from Gambling.

Who knows, maybe with with Principle Three (Step Three) down solid, I might be able to find an appropriate sponsor, temporary sponsor or accountability partner who can assist me in my recovery.

You have to start somewhere. I am looking at getting the gift cards from Amazon next week so that I can begin my recovery. Right now I am hoping for a Gamblers Anonymous Yellow Combo Booklet. I checked the website yesterday in the store and it is $1.00 for the book. The website is at

Today is Wednesday October 26, 2017

There is a Music At Noon concert almost every Wednesday from Noon until One. Then the Sacramento Kings open on the road tonight against Phoenix. We don’t get it on our cable, so I will probably watch the Baseball game on FOX.

Have a great day everyone, and tomorrow is Day 12 in my Daily Meditations from the Celebrate Recovery Study Bible that I downloaded to my Kindle app on my iPad. There is Tecarta Bible app as well which I still use, but I think I should stop at two apps.

I am looking forward to tomorrow night when the Kings play their first home game at the Golden 1 Center.

Day 5 Daily Meditation

I just read the Day 5 Daily Meditation in the Celebrate Recovery Bible, and I plan to do Day 6 tomorrow. I know that yesterday morning I was on Step One / Principal One. My plan on October 20, 2016 is to remain on that step until November 2016.

I was supposed to meet with my Behavioral Psychologist on Wednesday, but I never really met her yesterday. She may have come in but hopefully I can meet with her next Wednesday. I plan to do the Day 6 Daily Meditation sometime on Friday.

I posted something on my Facebook blog. I know that everyone doesn’t use Facebook, but I do for right now. It would be nice if I could post my blog on Facebook, but at this point I am trying to step out of denial, and turn my life around.

I also have a Tecarta Bible program on my iPad, and I use both of the Bible’s. At this point I choose to believe that I am a Presbyterian. I joined Westminster Presbyterian Church, but I don’t attend. I am hoping to get a Celebrate Recovery Small Group started in the next six weeks. They are looking into how to get the first four Workbooks. I have a sample of the Participants guide 1 on my iPad.

That is all for now, and I look forward to the Holidays ahead. I just don’t want to see Christmas decorations until after Thanksgiving.

Today is Thursday October 20, 2016


Breakfast in the Dining Room

I just had Breakfast in the Dining Room here at Gramercy Court. It was a good meal, with egg, toast, jelly and Cream of Wheat. Then there was Hot Chocolate, Milk and Apple Juice.

Normally after Breakfast I come out to the lobby, but I went back and got my medication after Breakfast.

I need the Internet for stuff on my IPad, so I am in the lobby now.

I know there is a Music at Noon concert at my church, but that is downtown.