Turning my Life Over to God

I am going through my NIV Celebrate Recovery Study Bible eBook that was provided by one person in Santa Cruz County. I am on Day 5 in the Daily Devotional at the end of the book. I went through those once already, and this is my second time through the program.

I still hope for a Gamblers Anonymous Combo Book, as that is a good way to help someone in recovery for a Gambling Problem think about things before they return to a Gambling establishment.

I might be able to review some of the material the Mormon missionaries left with me yesterday. I don’t plan to leave Westminster Presbyterian Church until the end of December, but I don’t believe that there is anything wrong with investigating a little before joining someplace.

I might need a new power cord for my Apple iPad in the next couple of Weeks.

I will try to update my newest blog here which is at http://BHushbeckEnterprises.wordpress.com

Now I can get back to watching GoodDay Sacramento until 11:00AM


Amends and YouTube

As I have been in various recovery groups, I am trying to blend the different programs together. At this point I don’t know who to make Amends to. The challenge that I have is how to explain the difference between an accountability partner, sponsor or Temporary Sponsor.

I think I will wait for about two weeks, and revisit this subject in two weeks. After all at the end of the reading it says something about how Jesus Christ will help us. I will pray about it, and maybe I will see about changing programs in the future.

As I wait for things to take shape in my mind, I will go ahead and talk about my problems with YouTube. It was playing clips fine a few days ago. I love using YouTube on my Apple iPad. But when I tried it again yesterday it was still coming up Playback Error Tap Again to Retry. I have contacted YouTube about the error, and I have looked at my Apple iPad.

My options for today today include the following.

1) My Apple iPad
2) The GHCGuest account on our network
3) YouTube

Normally I love to do either the 8 Recovery Principles by Pastor Rick Warren or play the 12 Steps on YouTube. I like to listen to music, and I have Run To The Battle by Steve Camp and The Road to Recovery by Rick Muchow and the Saddleback Church Band. I won’t be able to do that right now because of my YouTube.

I believe that I am still a Gamblers Anonymous member. I wish I had a Yellow Combo Book, but not at this time.

I could always contact someone at Westminster Presbyterian Church. They have two services this morning. One is early, and then another at eleven.

My plans today include Breakfast and Lunch in the Dining Room, Church Service in the clasroom at two, and then Dinner in the Dining Room tonight. Plans might change between now and Tuesday Afternoon when I get picked up by Alpha One in one of their wheelchair Vans for a ride down to my eye appointment at 2:30 on Timberlake Way.

I probably won’t revisit the Amends Meditation for another thirty days. Today was Day 15, which means tomorrow will be Day 16.

Fresh Starts in Arden Fair

I remember back when I was working at Sears over at Arden Fair Mall. That is a nice mall near Cal Expo where they have the State Fair every year. I have heard that they have the California sign that used to be at DCA in Anaheim.

I went to visit Disneyland, Downtown Disney and DCA several years ago while I was living at TLCS. But I am a little off topic, so please forgive me if I offended you.

I still live in Sacramento, and I got some stuff on YouTube from several different places. Right now I have some money in my account up front, so maybe someday in the future I could develop a Business like Fresh Baked Disney.

I should do some research on that in the coming months of November and December 2016. Right now it seems impossible, but maybe by 2017. I don’t have to do that, but it doesn’t hurt to explore.

I think that there are people on the Westmont Campus who might be able to help me put an end to my Gambling, as i try to focus on GA and the things that come when I am free from Gambling.

Who knows, maybe with with Principle Three (Step Three) down solid, I might be able to find an appropriate sponsor, temporary sponsor or accountability partner who can assist me in my recovery.

You have to start somewhere. I am looking at getting the gift cards from Amazon next week so that I can begin my recovery. Right now I am hoping for a Gamblers Anonymous Yellow Combo Booklet. I checked the website yesterday in the store and it is $1.00 for the book. The website is at http://www.gamblersanonymous.org

Today is Wednesday October 26, 2017

There is a Music At Noon concert almost every Wednesday from Noon until One. Then the Sacramento Kings open on the road tonight against Phoenix. We don’t get it on our cable, so I will probably watch the Baseball game on FOX.

Have a great day everyone, and tomorrow is Day 12 in my Daily Meditations from the Celebrate Recovery Study Bible that I downloaded to my Kindle app on my iPad. There is Tecarta Bible app as well which I still use, but I think I should stop at two apps.

I am looking forward to tomorrow night when the Kings play their first home game at the Golden 1 Center.

Name Change for my blog?

I am thinking about a name change for my blog. What are some ideas? I know that I haven’t been that creative in the past. I have a newfound creativity to work with.

I think I will change it in the next 21 Days. That would be 3 weeks to see if anyone has a suggestion for the new name. That would be November 15.

I signed up for a service from KLOVE. I think the reason for my new found creativity is the fact that I did not have a firm foundation when I was 13 or 14. At 54 I find myself in a unique situation. It could take up to a year, but I am playing it eafe with Gambling. As far as my issues with Food, that was a different story.

Today is Tuesday October 25, 2016.

As I think about my new found freedom, I just finished Day 10 in my readings at the back of the Celebrate Recovery Bible. Also I got a visit from the Senior Pastor at Westminster Presbyterian Church. I will see how November goes, but I have decided to stay a Presbyterian through November. I am a member at Westminster Presbyterian Church for now.

I read through Ephesians 6:10-20 on Sunday Night, and I sent out some emails yesterday. I decided to move on to Principle Two (Step Two) yesterday. There are 8 Principles and 12 Steps. I am not sure how long I will be on that Principle for.

I have to recover at my own pace. Tomorrow is Wednesday October 26, 2016 according to my Casio Watch. I will get the Participants Guides for my Apple iPad next month when John goes shopping for an Amazon Gift Card. Enjoy the World Series with the Chicago Cubs and the Cleveland Indians. The Sacramento Kings open up Wednesday on the road, then they play their first home game on a Thursday at the Golden 1 Center.

Thanks to Tecarta Bible app that I downloaded on my Apple iPad.

There are a few activities on the schedule for today here at Gramercy Court. If you think you might have a problem with Gamblimg, be sure and check out a meeting near you. I plan not to Gamble.

Sponsor for my Recovery

As I think about all of the people that I have asked to be a sponsor for my recovery program, it looks like I will have to start a new list. I know that today’s Daily Meditation covered the the subject of what to look for.

I will have to pray about my search. I know that from some of my experience that it has been difficult to explain exactly what the role of a sponsor is. Fortunately the Meditation for today, which is Sunday October 23, 2016 has a scripture verse with it. I read the verse out loud.

The primary issue that I have with my GA experience is what else to say about my other recovery issues. The good thing is that in the Golden State of California there has to have been one other person who I can contact to be a sponsor, accountability partner or temporary sponsor.

I do have the CR Bible eBook that I got this past Sunday, and I spoke with someone in the Business Office about ordering the Participants Guides for my Kindle on my Apple iPad. I have been through a CR Step Study before, and Participants Guide One covers the first three steps of any recovery program.

Of course my issues regarding SA and SimCityBuildit, which I thought about this past Friday I know that every support group has their own little control code. I don’t believe that I am actually addicted to the game on my Apple iPad. I have other things on my IPad besides SimCity. I have another Bible that I got from Tecarta. I will have to wait about six weeks to be able to ask someone.

My Home Church is Westminster Presbyterian Church for right now. That is in Sacramento. I joined them when I was living Downtown at Pensione K. I can listen to past sermons online and watch videos of some of the past M.A.N. Concerts. I listened to last weeks sermon on my iPad last night. This was during dinner in the Dining Room.

Survivor Wednesday

Tonight is another episode of Survivor on CBS. I plan to watch it tonight on TV. That is great news for my recovery. I didn’t understand the first three steps when I picked up the Love Hunger Workbook while working at Borland..

I know now that the first Step in any recovery group is saying your name, and what your in recovery for. For example, when I realized that I was a problem gambler, I began to attend GA meetings. I would say something like my name is Brian and I am a problem Gambler. There are Step Studies, and other types of support. The problem with the Love Hunger Program was the fact that I was dealing with more than just Food.

Now the challenge for me is how to step out of denial. Maybe sometime in the next ninety days I will find the answer. All I know now is that I am at Gramercy Court. I have another appointment in two weeks down on Timberlake Way with my Eye Doctor. Today I finished Day four in my Daily Devotional in my CR Bible that I got this past Sunday.

I plan to go to Day 5 on Thursday. I will probably review today’s reading one more time today. I am not planning on getting to my third step until December.

Today is today.

Breakfast in the Dining Room

I just had Breakfast in the Dining Room here at Gramercy Court. It was a good meal, with egg, toast, jelly and Cream of Wheat. Then there was Hot Chocolate, Milk and Apple Juice.

Normally after Breakfast I come out to the lobby, but I went back and got my medication after Breakfast.

I need the Internet for stuff on my IPad, so I am in the lobby now.

I know there is a Music at Noon concert at my church, but that is downtown.