Rebuilding Day Today is Monday November 7, 2016

As I type this on my Apple IPad here in Sacramento, CA I have noticed some significant changes. I think tat today will be a great day. As an only child of two parents, I grew up in a house on Echo Drive in Los Altos, CA. Being born in 1962 I don’t remember a lot from the younger years.

Yes I have had some emotional issues that led to my decision to leave my Job at Sears where I worked as a salesperson at Sears back in 2004. I had a relapse in my recovery from Gambling while working at Sears. Yes I drove out to Cache Creek after moving to a new place in Rosemont down near several churches. I returned home devastated, but the hard part was knowing how to recover from my Food Addiction. I picked up a book for Food Addiction called Love Hunger by a couple of doctors. The names slip my mind right now, but you can look it up on Google, Kindle or iBooks. Those are some of the apps available on my Apple iPad.

I showed the book to.a pastor down at Warehouse Christian Ministries who ran the recovery group down there and he pointed out that I only made it through Week 11. I should have said what I wanted to say, but I noticed something about the differences between Men and Women. I should have brought the subject up with one of them but it was difficult to explain in mixed company.

I liked Rosemont, but the other issue that I didn’t know that I had a problem with was sex. As a boy in Los Altos, I grew up in a house with two big Redwood Tress in the front yard. When I was young I used to climb the trees and we could see quite a bit. I think the trees are still there to this day. I don’t live in Los Altos any more but I am sure that almost anyone in the area of Rancho Shoppimg Center could verify that. I should have gone to Foothill College after High School, but I applied to Westmont College in Santa Barbara, CA. Actually that was in the Montecito Section of Santa Barbara up at 955 La Paz Road. Of course there are several schools in the Santa Barbara area including UCSB out in Isla Vista and Santa Barbara City College.

Of course I have visited Hollywood. I know that as a boy, some issues can cause you to be petrified. But there is always hope for a new beginning. I am a Man now, and as a boy I remember going on Vacation with my Parents to Yosemite. My Dad and I played golf at the Awhanee Hotel. I don’t remember if that is still there, but I can look it up online. Of course I had Pizza at Roundtable on El Camino in Los Altos, but that was over 30 Years ago.

Well Today is another chapter, but what kind of trouble can I cause around here today. I might be able to walk, but right now my electric wheelchair is right next to my Bed. I plan to stay with Westminster Presby.terian Church until at least December 2016. Unless they ask me to leave as I have those three addictions. Well at least I can read the two Bibles, and I watched a couple of videos on YouTube. There was the one from William Jessup University up in Rocklin, CA where they are putting on the play It’s A Wonderful Life. There was another one from Good Day from the Convention Center with the keys, and the Table. If I ever run into that guy named Jack who played Guitar at Mount Hermon I will have to challenge him as to Minnesota being the center of the Universe, Versus California.

Principle One (Step One) is basically saying that my life is all messed up and I need help. It was put together by Pastor Rick Warren. He is down in Southern California. Of course there is the time that I went down to Bakersfield. I suggest trying to wait until marriage, but if you can’t and you get expelled from school there is always other alternatives. I wonder if the Spring Sing committee has any good ideas for Spring Sing next year at the County. Bowl on Milpas.

That’s a Wrap. Cut and Print.

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Today is Saturday

I am watching The Late Late Show on CBS as I write this on my Apple iPad. I like CBS, but there are other things to do. I could read a book, watch a movie, listen to music. I know I was talking with one of the drivers that took me down to my doctor on Timberlake Way this past week about a software product from Google.

I might want to switch stations in the future. I know that tomorrow I want to watch GoodDay on Cable Channel 12. Those are sister stations over in West Sacramento. That is pretty close to IKEA and Raley Field.

There are many things I would like to do, but because of my poor eating habits, I have ended up in the nursing facility. I might never regain the use of my left hand. I know that on one of our Caravans back in 1980 to Etna, CA that we had a great time. If only I had asked one of those girls to a dance.

I was a boy, or when does a boy become a Man. I wish I had a Candy Cane to suck on right now, but I probably shouldn’t because I am TYPE 2 Diabetic.

Of course sometimes I read the paper. I used to deliver the paper for the Palo Alto Times, which was in the Santa Clara County. I should apologize to Nick sometime, as he tried to help, and I was crying. That was somewhere in Los Altos Hills.

Sometimes I ask myself what life would be like if I had things to do differently. I got my haircut this past week, and I remember my Dad taking me to the barber near Mountain View.

But that is the past, and today is going to be pretty good. Of course there is always the possibility of an earthquake, but I hope that doesn’t happen. I know that one of my dreams would be the only guy in a group of 20 women. It might be nice, but that isn’t really possible right now.

I have a powered wheelchair right now, and my Apple iPad. Of course with my YouTube working now, I don’t believe that I relapsed. Of course if I relapse, I just have to find a new support group. Maybe I should find a support group for SimCity Buildit. That is one of the games I have on my Apple iPad. I notice that tomorrow I have a prayer time at 8:00AM on my iPad schedule.

I believe that Jesus has healed me, but how do I start over? I will have to talk to Jennifer, my Behavioral Psychologist in our next session on Wednesday.

I should have someone proofread this before I submit it, but I can always edit this later. I use either WordPress or Blogo.

I might want to consider further education somewhere in the western region of the U.S.A., which might mean that I would leave the state. I might want to think about Colorado sometime. But it would be pretty cold, so I would need a jacket.

I didn’t get the gift card from Amazon, but I have to heal some more unless the good lord says my time is up.

Next week is Veterans Day on Friday November 11, 2016. But before .then is the Elections on the 8th.

Name Change for my blog?

I am thinking about a name change for my blog. What are some ideas? I know that I haven’t been that creative in the past. I have a newfound creativity to work with.

I think I will change it in the next 21 Days. That would be 3 weeks to see if anyone has a suggestion for the new name. That would be November 15.

I signed up for a service from KLOVE. I think the reason for my new found creativity is the fact that I did not have a firm foundation when I was 13 or 14. At 54 I find myself in a unique situation. It could take up to a year, but I am playing it eafe with Gambling. As far as my issues with Food, that was a different story.

Today is Tuesday October 25, 2016.

As I think about my new found freedom, I just finished Day 10 in my readings at the back of the Celebrate Recovery Bible. Also I got a visit from the Senior Pastor at Westminster Presbyterian Church. I will see how November goes, but I have decided to stay a Presbyterian through November. I am a member at Westminster Presbyterian Church for now.

I read through Ephesians 6:10-20 on Sunday Night, and I sent out some emails yesterday. I decided to move on to Principle Two (Step Two) yesterday. There are 8 Principles and 12 Steps. I am not sure how long I will be on that Principle for.

I have to recover at my own pace. Tomorrow is Wednesday October 26, 2016 according to my Casio Watch. I will get the Participants Guides for my Apple iPad next month when John goes shopping for an Amazon Gift Card. Enjoy the World Series with the Chicago Cubs and the Cleveland Indians. The Sacramento Kings open up Wednesday on the road, then they play their first home game on a Thursday at the Golden 1 Center.

Thanks to Tecarta Bible app that I downloaded on my Apple iPad.

There are a few activities on the schedule for today here at Gramercy Court. If you think you might have a problem with Gamblimg, be sure and check out a meeting near you. I plan not to Gamble.

Sim City Buildit

I am thinking that I might be addicted to SimCity Buildit. As an addict, it. can be difficult to determine if I continue on with my addiction. The Good thing about the Celebrat Recovery Study Bible is the Daily Devotion in the back. I just got the Bible this past Sunday. I am currently on Day 6 in the Daily Devotion.

As far as I have been with Gambling, I know that I might Gamble again. That would be considered as a relapse, and I contacted the GA office about the use of their logo on my Blog the other day. They have a website that I can check for meetings.

As far as my addiction to food, I didn’t even know that I was an addict when I picked up the Love Hunger Workbook. I don’t have the book right now, but I believe that it is still around.

I know that I contacted Venture Christian Christ Church about my other addiction. I hope the message gets through to Chip Ingram who is the Senior Pastor there in Los Gatos. That is different than the city of Los Altos.

On Friday October 21, 2016 as I lay in my bed here at Gramercy Court, I have a few things happening here at Gramercy Court. Breakfast is served about 7:45AM.

I read through the Road to Recovery this morning. I don’t think everyone is aware of that road that Rick Warren developed.

I am on Step One / Principle One in my addiction to SimCity Buildit. I might stay on Step One until November 1st. I might be able to move to Step Two / Principle Two before that time. I plan to listen to the 12 Steps and their Biblical Comparisons tomorrow.

I know that today is Friday, but Sunday is Coming. I won’t be able to make it to Westminster Presbyterian Church this Weekend, but that will continue to be my home church until the end of October. I will see about possibly switching churches in November.

I will pray about it this weekend, and continue on with the Daily Devotions. Some others might jump on board here in Sacramento County.

Survivor Wednesday

Tonight is another episode of Survivor on CBS. I plan to watch it tonight on TV. That is great news for my recovery. I didn’t understand the first three steps when I picked up the Love Hunger Workbook while working at Borland..

I know now that the first Step in any recovery group is saying your name, and what your in recovery for. For example, when I realized that I was a problem gambler, I began to attend GA meetings. I would say something like my name is Brian and I am a problem Gambler. There are Step Studies, and other types of support. The problem with the Love Hunger Program was the fact that I was dealing with more than just Food.

Now the challenge for me is how to step out of denial. Maybe sometime in the next ninety days I will find the answer. All I know now is that I am at Gramercy Court. I have another appointment in two weeks down on Timberlake Way with my Eye Doctor. Today I finished Day four in my Daily Devotional in my CR Bible that I got this past Sunday.

I plan to go to Day 5 on Thursday. I will probably review today’s reading one more time today. I am not planning on getting to my third step until December.

Today is today.

After Lunch

I just had Lunch in the Dining Room. It was Chili, Vegetables and Cornbread. I liked the meal, and now I am using my Apple iPad in the lobby.

I watched some YouTube videos earlier. It was a pretty good set of videos.

There are three more weeks until November.

I want to take care of some things this afternoon. I might get to my room early tonight.

That is all for right now.